Distinguished readers,
Just a quick heads up before we get started; this is my first blog - ever. So, before you start emailing about my poor grammar or other little tidbits that I need to learn in my blogging career, keep that in mind and be gentle. I bruise easily...
Who am I and why should you read my posts, you say? Well, my name is Nicola, I'm twenty-nine and I live in Indianapolis, Indiana. I'm about five foot eight inches tall and have Sponge Bob teeth. What of it? I mascarade as a fluffy person, but inside I'm a size four. I have severe, arched eyebrows and big, blue-green eyes. I like to talk with my hands and play guitar.
This is my last year in my twenties so I'm going to do a lot of things I haven't yet. Some of these things are going to be exciting and some are going to be down-right stupid. The thing is, we only get one shot at this (unless you subscribe to reincarnation which I may... I'm just not sure about it yet) and we have to make the most of the short time we get. While I'm living through these things, I'm going to blog about them so those of you who choose to take a safer path can live vicariously through these digital pages.
The spark for this blog was a break up. Yesterday. If you can even call it that. The guy who we'll call Gary to spare his identity was my best friend and we were getting along great. I wanted more. He couldn't give me more and kept saying to give him time. I just ran out of patience. Before you think I'm cold and crass, let me go ahead and tell you that I've been in this limbo with him for more than a year. I finally asked him if he was in love with me. His answer indicated that he was but couldn't act on it right now so he didn't want to be selfish by telling me that he was because he wanted me to live rather than wait for him to make up his mind. It hurts so much because he's the best guy I've ever met. He works hard, is talented and incredibly intelligent and kind. Absolutely, he is everything I want in a man, companion, best friend, partner in crime, etc. I can even see myself growing old with him and what our hilarious kids would look like. Good Lord, those kids would have some hilarious teeth...
So, I told him I wouldn't wait anymore and that I needed to completely sever all ties with him so I could get over him. It feels like I'm imploding. My heart practically weighs a ton. Even as I type this, Pandora is playing "I Believe in a Thing Called Love" by The Darkness. I thought the break would give him the time he needs to see what life is like without me. If it was awesome when I was there, he won't want to lose that. I think there's a chance that he'll rethink things and call me. We'll see, I guess.
There will be more to write about Gary later. I'm going to tell you all the hilarious and horrible things we've gotten into over the course of our relationship. Trust me when I tell you, it will make you laugh and cry.
I will also be sharing a great deal of my favorite music with you. I have an eclectic taste and will try anything once - musically, that is. Okay, so anything else, too. I'll try to post a song of the day every day but more than likely, I will just post seven songs on one day of the week so I don't make myself a liar by saying I will post every day.
So, that's what this is. It will grow and change over time, I'm sure. I'm excited to be sharing this with you all! I don't know you yet, but I'm sure you'll begin to develop a picture of who I am over time. Thank you for reading!
--Nic
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